My voice

I have always liked writing. Both the creating of a story and the physical act of writing down the words on a paper trigger something inside of me, make me feel happy and whole. But often when I write, I feel like there is something missing. I cannot transcript my feelings, my emotions, my intonation. In the end, it is just words on paper and some days, that’s not enough. What I want to do is speak to you, not by the pixels on your screen, but by the sound in you headphones. I want you to hear me say what I have to say the way I want it heard, not the way it looks like on screen.

I’ve always liked movies and tv-shows that feature a voice-over at some point, introducing the story or ending it, or keeping it all together.
If only I had the nerve.

Changes

Dear readers of my blog, however humble your numbers. Changes are coming. In my life and on this blog. I have wondered many times if I should just start a new blog to support this new interest of mine but I have decided not to. Raevyns Stories is about my stories, about me finding out who I am and so it is okay if my blog changes when I change.

Since my last post about Spain, at the end of October last year, many things have changed and not much has changed, at the same time. I have a job now, and I usually work three days a week. I am more aware of what I do and why. And I am very aware of the fact that there is stuff in my head that’s holding me back, knots I have to unwind if I want to get anywhere with my emotional development. I try to read more books and watch less tv. I teach myself piano and tarot.

The Fool - The Ravens Prophecy

The Fool, from the Ravens Prophecy deck

When it comes to this blog I want to make it more about my emotional and spiritual journey. As I said I am learning the tarot, I am overthinking the concept of ‘shadowwork’ and I am, in general, thinking a lot about emotional and spiritual stuff. I hope by getting this new focus here I will stay motivated to work on this blog, and I hope my stories will maybe help some other people get through the stuff that’s holding them back.

So here’s to change guys, to new beginnings.

No Inspiration

I don’t know if I have used this title before, but it states exactly what my situation is right now. I don’t like the Daily Prompt and I don’t know what else to write about.

So now what?

I don’t know. Honestly. I have just stared at my screen for the past twenty minutes after I wrote that last sentence.

Sorry guys. The flow is not flowing today, I guess.

Raevyn

Prompts #11 – Lazy Learners

Every day, The Daily Post posts a prompt on their website – a situation or little idea you can use as inspiration to write. Yesterday’s prompt was lazy learners, and this is my interpretation.

Lazy Learners
Is there something you’ve always wanted to learn but haven’t gotten around to? What is it and what’s stopping you from mastering the skill?

There are many things in life that I wish I could do, that I want to learn. I want to be able to run faster, further. I want to learn a foreign language. I want to learn how to read the tarot.

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Prompts #10 – Life’s a Candy Store

Every day, The Daily Post posts a prompt on their website – a situation or little idea you can use as inspiration to write. Yesterday’s prompt was life’s a candy store, and this is my interpretation.

Life’s a Candy Store
You get to be a 6-year-old kid again for one day and one day only — plan your perfect 24 hours. Where do you go, what do you do, and with whom?

Eighteen
Right now I am eighteen years old and before I start answering this question, I just want to make clear that generally, I wouldn’t want to be any younger than I am now. Every day I get older, I realize more and more of what is happening around me, and of what is happening inside me. Especially that last one is very important to me, a treat not many people have in the way I do, and every time I see something changing inside me, I feel more complete. I wouldn’t want to be younger. I just want to live now.

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Prompts #9 – Must Not Fail

Every day, The Daily Post posts a prompt on their website – a situation or little idea you can use as inspiration to write. Yesterday’s prompt was must not fail, and this is my interpretation.

Must Not Fail
What is the one thing at which you are the most afraid of failing?

I am afraid of many things. I am afraid of the dark, I am afraid of people, I am afraid of what I can not yet wrap my head around. I am a quite frightfull person, I’m afraid. And when I look at what I just wrote, it appears to me that mostly I am afraid of the unknown. If it is dark and I can’t see what is around me, I am afraid. If someone comes up to me and I do not know what they want, I am afraid. If I launch myself into a situation that I can not oversee, of which I do not really know what is awaiting me, I am afraid.

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10 things I found while cleaning out my room

For the last few weeks I have been buisy cleaning out my room. It started with the idea that I wanted a new floor. Right now there is old carpet on the floor, the colour isn’t what it used to be and it is so dusty…. And I’m kind of allergic to dust, so not a good combination. So I wanted laminate on the floor. And then I decided I wanted to paint my door and windowframe. Oh, and I wanted to paint on my wall.

I started with the door and windowframe, because it wouldn’t really matter if we’d drop paint on the old carpet. Since the painting is done I have been cleaning and cleaning and throwing stuff away. When that is done (in a week I hope) I’ll go and paint my wall and after that is done we can do the floor and I HOPE it will all be done before the month is over. Not gonna happen, but it’s good to have hopes.

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